One year to 25 which is halfway to 50....

Sooo.....I'm 24 now. And that's about it.

Ta!

I don't feel right! I feel like I'm leaking!

Should I update my blog? No, there is too much, I will sum up:

-Came home in desperation for a job

-Working at interstate makes me wish I didn't have a job

-Went to NYC with my cousins and saw WICKED while nursing a bad sunburn

-I LOVE my nieces and nephews. Like seriously, they can be so annoying but I love them to death!

-Still don't have a life (as reminded by my parents every so often)

-My lovely computer crashed and (mostly because I was being so pathetic) a friend managed to fix most of it for me

-Found out that graduating in April is gonna be tough...::dies::

-I spent pretty much every weekend at my sisters' house cause they are far more fun than my parents (love my parents, just don't want to live with them)

-Going back to Utah in about 2 weeks... ta da!

-I'm turning 24 (yes, 2-4) in about a month...when did that happen? And why do I still not have a life?

-Bought a book called "The GRE Test for Dummies". And no, I'm not kidding. I'm about 1/3 of the way through it.

And that's my summer....in a wrap ;)

Allons-y Alonso

I still don't have a job. I want to go home.

The end :(

ps. I *am* getting contacts again, which is the most exciting thing that's happened in my life in several years.

Wibbly, Wobbly, Timey, Wimey...

So there's not much to update about my life, but I'm rather bored this morning so I thought I'd try and think of something to write about :p

I had a real miracle in my life this last week as I prepared to teach the Gospel Doctrine class in church. (not a spiritual miracle...just a miracle, lol). I usually teach Temple Prep, but when the semesters change over the get rid of the "extra" classes for a few weeks and just divide the remaining teaches between the Gospel Doctrine classes. Three weeks ago, the departing sunday school president emailed us a schedule of who would teach when. I was assigned to teach with some girl I didn't know and it I was FREAKING out about it....I was really looking for *any* excuse to not do it. But of course I bit the bullet and got together with my partner and we planned the lesson out. She even told me that she was not looking forward to it either (it's intimidating to teach college students! Of course now I'm older than practically all of them....I'm old, lol), so that made me feel better, knowing it was not just me. So we were all prepared, went to church, sat through Sacrament, went up to the classroom, got set up...just as we're about to start, these two guys walk up and tell us that *they* had been assigned to teach that week! Not wanting to interfer with the good system of the church ( ::winkwink:: ) we graciously backed down and let them teach (the new sunday school president apparently didn't coordinate with the old one, lol). Anywho, small miracle I guess ;) I'll take what I can get :p

Still no luck on the job front. And that's all I really have to say about that.

Still SO hooked on Doctor Who that it's probably quite pathetic. Of course, this is how I always get when I find something new, I get addicted to it for a little while, lol. But I'm afraid this show is just going to go on forever and I'll never get my life back!!! ::sigh:: Now if only I could find someone (in this country who I don't just know over the internet) who watched the show so I could rant about it with them!! TOO MUCH IN MY HEAD :p

I've started going back to grandma after almost two weeks of practically no visits to her. I felt very bad about it, but I really didn't want to hear any more from her about how badly I need to find a job. Thankfully the last few times I've visited, she's cooled the subject down a lot. Matt and his family have been staying there this weekend while they are "between" houses so that was fun to be able to go over there and spend time with them as well. Ellie is getting so grown up, it's crazy...and she's got a little brother now!! I got to go to the hospital a day or two after Kayden was born and I saw him and held him!! He was so tiny! but at the same time he wasn't! He's doing so well and is so healthy, that is definitley a miracle :D When I held him, he still had an IV on him that was running through the top of his head :( I know it was for his benefit, but it just looked so terrible, I'm glad that they've been able to move the IV since then. Matt still doesn't know when Kayden will be able to come home, but he's doing so well, and with the family in the process of moving, it's probably a blessing that he's out of Tyrelle, but still in the hospital.

Alright, well that's all I got! Till next time, people...

Are you the Doctor?

AHHHHH!!!!!

I just finished watching the end of DW season 2 and I seriously was starting to cry when the Doctor and Rose said goodbye!! ::sob:: Like, I never cry in movies (with a few exceptions for church movies) and I NEVER cry in TV shows but oh dear I was tearing up so bad!!

::sob::

I know Rose "comes back" somehow but dang, that was amazing acting by David and Billie!

okay that is all, lol...

Nobody likes you when you're 23!

Since I'm done with school and have nothing to do... I thought I'd blog about it, haha :p

I had this whole big goal of spending lots of time with my grandma once school was over, cause I kinda neglected her a bit this semester and I wanted to be able to visit with her and keep her company (you know, as long as I'm stuck out here and everything). But of course when I go to visit her on Friday, the only bloody thing she can talk about is how I need to get a job and I need to be more assertive and brag about myself and blah blah blah blah BLAH!!! That old woman needs a smack down! She has no idea how hard I'm trying to find a job and how *hard* it is for me to put myself out there! ugh. Anyway, I didn't stay long and just promised I'd visit the next day. So I go back on Saturday, hoping I can just sit there and play the piano and she'll be quiet. But NOOOO...my aunts are over having some kind of brainstorming meeting about Caroline's opera and so I can't play the piano without looking rude and I am once *again* subjected to chastisement for my lack of job. Needless to say I didn't stay long again, and promised to come back the next day. Of course I didn't go back today. Ugh, I'm such a bad granddaughter. But seriously, I don't want to hear it anymore! I get it every time I call home (which I'm not doing anymore, btw) so I'm just going to avoid my grandma as well until I find a job. Easy enough...

Of course this leaves me with even more free time to apply for jobs. I applied for quite a few yesterday, even went driving around and wrote down info and talked to people about jobs. I applied at Zupas....mmmm I love their soup, lol.

To pass the time when I'm not job hunting, I've been watching the earlier seasons of Doctor Who and they are so fun!! Why on earth didn't I watch them sooner?? The first (nine) doctor was perfect! I loved him LOTS more than I thought I would and he totally won me over, lol! And I love Rose! Gah! She's fabulous! And then of course I get into the "David Tennant" seasons and ohhhh boy, I was DYING laughing!! Just in the first episode where he is "possessed" by this lady and he has to act all feminine...oh dear, my roommates probably thought I was mad, lol! It was just so SO much fun! I'm about halfway through the 2nd season and I never want it to end! Of course I still get new episodes every week with Matt (Eleven) and he is still my favorite, even though David is a very VERY close second, lol :p And I'd even say that Christopher is a very VERY close third! I think they're just all so fun in their own special way :)

I'm trying to keep my mind off of home, but it keeps wandering there anyway. I had a big dream last night that I was home and when I woke up it was rather depressing, lol. But I really just have to remind myself that if I was hope right now I would just be wishing I was gone...I don't want to go live there, just a visit would be nice. I miss my siblings and my nieces and nephew :( It's weird to think of not being home for summer...I've NEVER done that before. ::sigh:: I know, I know - "Liisa! you're 23! It's about time to be independent!" Shut it! I'm the youngest (well, second to youngest) and I just want to be home sometimes, okay?

I can't think of anything funny to put here

I AM DONE WITH THIS SEMESTER.

Thank goodness.

Hummmm...I should probably eat some real food today....

What's that? I still need to find a job?

::covers ears::

LA LA LA!! I CAN'T HEAR YOU!!

Why should I have to WORK for everything?! It's like saying I don't deserve it!

10 more days and then I will be DONE with this semester...it cannot end quick enough...

Thankfully my anatomy lab was finished on monday!! ::throws confetti:: I have no idea what I got on the final, but I could not care less! I'm going to pass and that's good enough for me at this point. I never knew the purpose of that class anyway...No more looking at dead bodies!! My dad told me that this experience of taking anatomy was just so that I would know that nothing will ever be as hard as that class was, lol. He said I should use it as a comparison for everything difficult that happens in my life: "Well, this isn't as bad as that anatomy class."

Since I'm not going home from Spring/Summer, finding a job is getting *really* important, not like it wasn't important before, but now if I don't have a job in two weeks I am literally going to have NOTHING to do...cause I'm not taking classes or anything. I had a dream last night that I got one of the many jobs I applied for and I was so happy and relieved and when I woke up I wanted to start crying cause I realized it had just been a dream. It didn't help that my parents were out here just these past two weeks and there's nothing to make you feel more like a failure than having your parents see if first-hand. My dad particularly doesn't understand why I don't have more ambition in my life, why I don't aspire to anything. Truthfully he's right, at the moment there is nothing I'm really working towards, except graduation, but what comes after that? Grad school I guess, but I haven't looked into anything for grad school and frankly, with the way my bank account looks right now, I don't want to even think about how much that's going to cost. I love my major, but I'm not doing as well grade-wise as I should be and it's making me frustrated with my life choices. Ugh, but who *isn't* frustrated with their life choices when they're 23?

Of course I've been frustrated with my life choices since I was 16.

On top of all this, I miss my family :( This will be the longest I've gone without going home. Even my mission lasted only 6 months, but if I don't visit home until the end of august it'll be 8 months. I should probably just grow up and get over it, but it's hard not to be there where all my nieces are growing up and my brothers and sisters are living their lives. It is wonderful to have Matt out here, but it's never the same.

There are a lot of bright points in my life right now, though. My friends are just amazing. It's finally reached the divide where I have more friends out here in Utah than in Virginia and that will make it easier to stay out here for Spring/Summer. Just yesterday my friend Katie invited me over for a "Jam Party" at her house and we made homemade bread and jam (random much?). It sounds weird, but we had lots of fun and I'm so glad that she's going to be here over the summer. My roommate Sara is also staying, which is a big relief that I'll still have someone I know in my apartment. Kristen, another friend from class, has her baby due in about 2 months and Katie and I are *so* excited to babysit, lol. And there's always lots of good friends in my classes since all my classes have the same people :p And there's even more friends!! Amy, Ashley, Mariah, Hsin-Ping...great, amazing people who put up with me :p It should be a fun summer, I hope!

And of course there's always video-making, lol, which really occupies my life ;) I'm trying to branch into new things but it's time consuming, we'll have to see how long my patience holds out. At the moment I've vidded these fandoms: Robin Hood, Merlin, Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, Alice, Spooks, Alias and The Young Victoria. And right now I have a Firefly/Serenity video in the works along with two Legend of the Seeker videos. We'll see if I get any of them done. The most tedious step for me is getting the clips, whether it's ripping them from my DVD's or downloading them...I just have no patience, lol. And of course whenever I am working on a video I feel lazy cause that means I'm not looking for a job, but there's only so many applications you can send in, ugh...I'm just no good at bragging about myself. My grandma says that's why i don't have a job yet: I don't beef up my resume enough or "lie" about my abilities. blah.

In an effort to leave you on a lighter note, here's my latest vid (and my first attempt at vidding The Young Victoria). If you haven't seen this movie yet, I strongly recommend it! Just a beautiful love story!

Oh, oh, oh, to take a family vacation go Vegas after hours.

I thought it simpler to narrow my life down to a few lists:

Movies I've seen recently:

- Leap Year (LOVED IT. I need a guy with an Irish accent, lol, but what else is new?)

- Princess and the Frig (about how I expected, cute but rather disappointing for a Disney movie, nothing like the classics)

- Old Dogs (Surprisingly HILARIOUS. I laughed far more than I should have)

- Avatar (I actually only sat through about half of it, didn't see it in a theater so that probably took away a lot of the appeal)

- Percy Jackson and the Olympians (LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE)

- Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs (again, surprisingly hilarious! Especially for Dreamworks)

- Did You Hear About the Morgans? (I love Hugh Grant so I knew I was going to like this. Of course I also do not like Sarah Jessica Parker, so it could've been a toss up. It was okay, though. Hugh made it very enjoyable, lol)

Tests I've taken recently:

- too. many. anatomy. tests. (I am SO done with this class. Fed up with everything about it and already burned out with still a whole month and a half to go! ::dies:: If I have to look inside the chest to another cadaver I really think I'm going to start gagging in front of the TA's)

- Hearing Science (I never go to this class any more, but it's the class I'm doing the best in. Go figure)

- Articulation and Phonological Phonetics (This teacher is the bane of my existence (tied with anatomy) and I don't understand her at all, or her class. I got an A on the first test and something really, really bad on the second test)

Jobs I've gotten recently:

-NONE

Money I've spent recently:

-LOTS

Vids I've made recently:

- http://www.youtube.com/user/Liisakee

- I've made *20* since my last blog post

- I just keep making more.

- I'm addicted.

- It's like my drug.

- This isn't really a list.

- Are you still reading this?

Decisions I've made recently:

- Not going home for Spring/Summer (mostly cause it's cheaper to live out here than go through the emotional fee of living with my parents)

- Threw away about half of my clothes. It was just time. (Of course now almost all my clothes really have belonged to one of my sisters before they belonged to me)

- Bought my own temple dress (::squee::!! LOVE IT)

- I will (most likely) be apply to a grad school somewhere in VA this time next year (iz skrd...)

he's mad as a box of frogs

So I never update this blog. I don't know why I thought it would be different, cause I've never been able to keep a journal for longer than a week in my life (scratch that - I did do it on my mission).

Anywho, here's a rundown of my life since Christmas:

• The reunion at the beach was SO fun and SO cold
• Except of course for that part where I got sick and lost my voice through most of my vacation - that was not so fun
• But I got medicine for it - but it didn't start working till a day after I got back in Utah
• Oh the irony
• My neice Audrey is ADORABLE. She was saved from my excessive smooching by my sickness, but that also means I couldn't save her from her over-attentive cousins
• The two videos I made for my family were a big hit :D
• I *didn't* have to take down Christmas decorations before I left - SCORE
• I *did* go see Sherlock Holmes twice - loved it.
• Saw "The Young Victoria" - LOVED it
• Got a new obsession in the form of the Syfy mini-series "Alice". My official new celebrity crush is Andrew-Lee Potts. - LOVE him (I'm not even joking, I really do love him)
• The new school semseter is going to kick my trash like nothing I've ever experianced
• Anatomy especially is going to make my brain leak out of my ears
• I now have over 550 subscribers on YT. How in the world did *that* happen?
• My car is still alive - YAY!
• reread "Breaking Dawn"....umm...yeah.
• My new calling in the ward is Temple Prep Teacher - LOVE IT

Latest Personal Revelation: With how crazy school is I wasn't sure if I could keep vidding. I've decided, though, that I really think I need to vid. As self centered as this sounds, I really think I need to have something in my life where I'm decent at it, love it, get a good response from it, ect. There's not a whole lot of that anywhere else in my life right now. Sometimes it's just nice to do something you're good at and go somewhere you're appreciated and accepted. Plus, I've got so many good friends on YT now (cyberfriends? me? I know, it's weird) and I love having friends :D

On a completely random and unrelated note: for Christmas my mom gave each of us a copy of our family pedigree chart tracing us back to Adam and Eve. Around the chart are family crests of people we're related to. One of them is the Earl of Huntington. I realize that in the original Robin Hood legend he wasn't even a noble, and I realize that it is a legend, but it still makes me smile every time I think about it. Also, my Aunt Jen told me last night that a couple in her ward recently went through the temple and guess what names they were proxies for? Robin of Locksley and Marian of Knighton. I can't make this stuff up people.