Are you the Doctor?

AHHHHH!!!!!

I just finished watching the end of DW season 2 and I seriously was starting to cry when the Doctor and Rose said goodbye!! ::sob:: Like, I never cry in movies (with a few exceptions for church movies) and I NEVER cry in TV shows but oh dear I was tearing up so bad!!

::sob::

I know Rose "comes back" somehow but dang, that was amazing acting by David and Billie!

okay that is all, lol...

Nobody likes you when you're 23!

Since I'm done with school and have nothing to do... I thought I'd blog about it, haha :p

I had this whole big goal of spending lots of time with my grandma once school was over, cause I kinda neglected her a bit this semester and I wanted to be able to visit with her and keep her company (you know, as long as I'm stuck out here and everything). But of course when I go to visit her on Friday, the only bloody thing she can talk about is how I need to get a job and I need to be more assertive and brag about myself and blah blah blah blah BLAH!!! That old woman needs a smack down! She has no idea how hard I'm trying to find a job and how *hard* it is for me to put myself out there! ugh. Anyway, I didn't stay long and just promised I'd visit the next day. So I go back on Saturday, hoping I can just sit there and play the piano and she'll be quiet. But NOOOO...my aunts are over having some kind of brainstorming meeting about Caroline's opera and so I can't play the piano without looking rude and I am once *again* subjected to chastisement for my lack of job. Needless to say I didn't stay long again, and promised to come back the next day. Of course I didn't go back today. Ugh, I'm such a bad granddaughter. But seriously, I don't want to hear it anymore! I get it every time I call home (which I'm not doing anymore, btw) so I'm just going to avoid my grandma as well until I find a job. Easy enough...

Of course this leaves me with even more free time to apply for jobs. I applied for quite a few yesterday, even went driving around and wrote down info and talked to people about jobs. I applied at Zupas....mmmm I love their soup, lol.

To pass the time when I'm not job hunting, I've been watching the earlier seasons of Doctor Who and they are so fun!! Why on earth didn't I watch them sooner?? The first (nine) doctor was perfect! I loved him LOTS more than I thought I would and he totally won me over, lol! And I love Rose! Gah! She's fabulous! And then of course I get into the "David Tennant" seasons and ohhhh boy, I was DYING laughing!! Just in the first episode where he is "possessed" by this lady and he has to act all feminine...oh dear, my roommates probably thought I was mad, lol! It was just so SO much fun! I'm about halfway through the 2nd season and I never want it to end! Of course I still get new episodes every week with Matt (Eleven) and he is still my favorite, even though David is a very VERY close second, lol :p And I'd even say that Christopher is a very VERY close third! I think they're just all so fun in their own special way :)

I'm trying to keep my mind off of home, but it keeps wandering there anyway. I had a big dream last night that I was home and when I woke up it was rather depressing, lol. But I really just have to remind myself that if I was hope right now I would just be wishing I was gone...I don't want to go live there, just a visit would be nice. I miss my siblings and my nieces and nephew :( It's weird to think of not being home for summer...I've NEVER done that before. ::sigh:: I know, I know - "Liisa! you're 23! It's about time to be independent!" Shut it! I'm the youngest (well, second to youngest) and I just want to be home sometimes, okay?

I can't think of anything funny to put here

I AM DONE WITH THIS SEMESTER.

Thank goodness.

Hummmm...I should probably eat some real food today....

What's that? I still need to find a job?

::covers ears::

LA LA LA!! I CAN'T HEAR YOU!!

Why should I have to WORK for everything?! It's like saying I don't deserve it!

10 more days and then I will be DONE with this semester...it cannot end quick enough...

Thankfully my anatomy lab was finished on monday!! ::throws confetti:: I have no idea what I got on the final, but I could not care less! I'm going to pass and that's good enough for me at this point. I never knew the purpose of that class anyway...No more looking at dead bodies!! My dad told me that this experience of taking anatomy was just so that I would know that nothing will ever be as hard as that class was, lol. He said I should use it as a comparison for everything difficult that happens in my life: "Well, this isn't as bad as that anatomy class."

Since I'm not going home from Spring/Summer, finding a job is getting *really* important, not like it wasn't important before, but now if I don't have a job in two weeks I am literally going to have NOTHING to do...cause I'm not taking classes or anything. I had a dream last night that I got one of the many jobs I applied for and I was so happy and relieved and when I woke up I wanted to start crying cause I realized it had just been a dream. It didn't help that my parents were out here just these past two weeks and there's nothing to make you feel more like a failure than having your parents see if first-hand. My dad particularly doesn't understand why I don't have more ambition in my life, why I don't aspire to anything. Truthfully he's right, at the moment there is nothing I'm really working towards, except graduation, but what comes after that? Grad school I guess, but I haven't looked into anything for grad school and frankly, with the way my bank account looks right now, I don't want to even think about how much that's going to cost. I love my major, but I'm not doing as well grade-wise as I should be and it's making me frustrated with my life choices. Ugh, but who *isn't* frustrated with their life choices when they're 23?

Of course I've been frustrated with my life choices since I was 16.

On top of all this, I miss my family :( This will be the longest I've gone without going home. Even my mission lasted only 6 months, but if I don't visit home until the end of august it'll be 8 months. I should probably just grow up and get over it, but it's hard not to be there where all my nieces are growing up and my brothers and sisters are living their lives. It is wonderful to have Matt out here, but it's never the same.

There are a lot of bright points in my life right now, though. My friends are just amazing. It's finally reached the divide where I have more friends out here in Utah than in Virginia and that will make it easier to stay out here for Spring/Summer. Just yesterday my friend Katie invited me over for a "Jam Party" at her house and we made homemade bread and jam (random much?). It sounds weird, but we had lots of fun and I'm so glad that she's going to be here over the summer. My roommate Sara is also staying, which is a big relief that I'll still have someone I know in my apartment. Kristen, another friend from class, has her baby due in about 2 months and Katie and I are *so* excited to babysit, lol. And there's always lots of good friends in my classes since all my classes have the same people :p And there's even more friends!! Amy, Ashley, Mariah, Hsin-Ping...great, amazing people who put up with me :p It should be a fun summer, I hope!

And of course there's always video-making, lol, which really occupies my life ;) I'm trying to branch into new things but it's time consuming, we'll have to see how long my patience holds out. At the moment I've vidded these fandoms: Robin Hood, Merlin, Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, Alice, Spooks, Alias and The Young Victoria. And right now I have a Firefly/Serenity video in the works along with two Legend of the Seeker videos. We'll see if I get any of them done. The most tedious step for me is getting the clips, whether it's ripping them from my DVD's or downloading them...I just have no patience, lol. And of course whenever I am working on a video I feel lazy cause that means I'm not looking for a job, but there's only so many applications you can send in, ugh...I'm just no good at bragging about myself. My grandma says that's why i don't have a job yet: I don't beef up my resume enough or "lie" about my abilities. blah.

In an effort to leave you on a lighter note, here's my latest vid (and my first attempt at vidding The Young Victoria). If you haven't seen this movie yet, I strongly recommend it! Just a beautiful love story!

Oh, oh, oh, to take a family vacation go Vegas after hours.

I thought it simpler to narrow my life down to a few lists:

Movies I've seen recently:

- Leap Year (LOVED IT. I need a guy with an Irish accent, lol, but what else is new?)

- Princess and the Frig (about how I expected, cute but rather disappointing for a Disney movie, nothing like the classics)

- Old Dogs (Surprisingly HILARIOUS. I laughed far more than I should have)

- Avatar (I actually only sat through about half of it, didn't see it in a theater so that probably took away a lot of the appeal)

- Percy Jackson and the Olympians (LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE)

- Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs (again, surprisingly hilarious! Especially for Dreamworks)

- Did You Hear About the Morgans? (I love Hugh Grant so I knew I was going to like this. Of course I also do not like Sarah Jessica Parker, so it could've been a toss up. It was okay, though. Hugh made it very enjoyable, lol)

Tests I've taken recently:

- too. many. anatomy. tests. (I am SO done with this class. Fed up with everything about it and already burned out with still a whole month and a half to go! ::dies:: If I have to look inside the chest to another cadaver I really think I'm going to start gagging in front of the TA's)

- Hearing Science (I never go to this class any more, but it's the class I'm doing the best in. Go figure)

- Articulation and Phonological Phonetics (This teacher is the bane of my existence (tied with anatomy) and I don't understand her at all, or her class. I got an A on the first test and something really, really bad on the second test)

Jobs I've gotten recently:

-NONE

Money I've spent recently:

-LOTS

Vids I've made recently:

- http://www.youtube.com/user/Liisakee

- I've made *20* since my last blog post

- I just keep making more.

- I'm addicted.

- It's like my drug.

- This isn't really a list.

- Are you still reading this?

Decisions I've made recently:

- Not going home for Spring/Summer (mostly cause it's cheaper to live out here than go through the emotional fee of living with my parents)

- Threw away about half of my clothes. It was just time. (Of course now almost all my clothes really have belonged to one of my sisters before they belonged to me)

- Bought my own temple dress (::squee::!! LOVE IT)

- I will (most likely) be apply to a grad school somewhere in VA this time next year (iz skrd...)

he's mad as a box of frogs

So I never update this blog. I don't know why I thought it would be different, cause I've never been able to keep a journal for longer than a week in my life (scratch that - I did do it on my mission).

Anywho, here's a rundown of my life since Christmas:

• The reunion at the beach was SO fun and SO cold
• Except of course for that part where I got sick and lost my voice through most of my vacation - that was not so fun
• But I got medicine for it - but it didn't start working till a day after I got back in Utah
• Oh the irony
• My neice Audrey is ADORABLE. She was saved from my excessive smooching by my sickness, but that also means I couldn't save her from her over-attentive cousins
• The two videos I made for my family were a big hit :D
• I *didn't* have to take down Christmas decorations before I left - SCORE
• I *did* go see Sherlock Holmes twice - loved it.
• Saw "The Young Victoria" - LOVED it
• Got a new obsession in the form of the Syfy mini-series "Alice". My official new celebrity crush is Andrew-Lee Potts. - LOVE him (I'm not even joking, I really do love him)
• The new school semseter is going to kick my trash like nothing I've ever experianced
• Anatomy especially is going to make my brain leak out of my ears
• I now have over 550 subscribers on YT. How in the world did *that* happen?
• My car is still alive - YAY!
• reread "Breaking Dawn"....umm...yeah.
• My new calling in the ward is Temple Prep Teacher - LOVE IT

Latest Personal Revelation: With how crazy school is I wasn't sure if I could keep vidding. I've decided, though, that I really think I need to vid. As self centered as this sounds, I really think I need to have something in my life where I'm decent at it, love it, get a good response from it, ect. There's not a whole lot of that anywhere else in my life right now. Sometimes it's just nice to do something you're good at and go somewhere you're appreciated and accepted. Plus, I've got so many good friends on YT now (cyberfriends? me? I know, it's weird) and I love having friends :D

On a completely random and unrelated note: for Christmas my mom gave each of us a copy of our family pedigree chart tracing us back to Adam and Eve. Around the chart are family crests of people we're related to. One of them is the Earl of Huntington. I realize that in the original Robin Hood legend he wasn't even a noble, and I realize that it is a legend, but it still makes me smile every time I think about it. Also, my Aunt Jen told me last night that a couple in her ward recently went through the temple and guess what names they were proxies for? Robin of Locksley and Marian of Knighton. I can't make this stuff up people.

Check out my bizzillion ab muscles...

11 days till Christmas!!!

Wow, did that just come out of nowhere? Of course at the same time it feels like this semester has been FOREVER long, lol! But it's practically over! I only have one (well, technically two) more final to take and then I'll be on my way home!! So exciting :D Never thought I'd be excited to go back home again, but the reunion that we've been planning for this Christmas is just going to be fabulous :) I'm still very, *very* bummed that Matt and Tyrelle and Ellie aren't going to be there, but everyone else is, so it should still be awesome!!!

(lots of exclamation points in this post already, huh?)

I took two finals today and actually did well on them (gasp!). Of course then I went to try and sell back my stupid Anatomy book (you all remember *that* fiasco, don't you?) and BYU wouldn't take it!? what's up with that? They said they can't take it cause it's damaged, but that's how I bought it! I barely even used the book anyway....pft....annoying....but it all turned out fine in the end. Actually better than fine. Cause right when I got home I put it up on the BYU book exchange and someone called me about an hour later and wanted to buy it! And she's also going to buy my workbook, which I hardly used and would've have been able to sell back anyway, so really I got an even better deal, lol. Way to beat the system! GO ME!

I never reported on my "Wedding/Thanksgiving break" just cause the story was too long. It was a CRAZY long, busy week, but lots of fun and I'm glad I got to be involved in both the weddings. The most exciting story from that week was getting from Vegas to Provo on Saturday night. I ended up just going to catch a Greyhound bus to Provo and rode it through the night. I didn't get any sleep cause there was some completely unnatural snoring going on in the front of the bus. Even my headphones didn't block it out....ugh. So I reach Provo at 5:30 in the morning with no ride from the bus stop to my apartment. So I start walking. Another BYU student was on the bus too, so he walked with me part of the way. He was an exchanged student from Taiwan so he didn't know really where he was going and we were in south Provo where I NEVER go, so I had no idea either. I ended up steering us towards Smiths, which was good cause that led us to Freedom Drive and you can get anywhere in Provo if you find Freedom Drive. So yeah, I ended up walking about an hour and a half back to my apartment. The guy walked with me for about half the time, then we split off to go in different directions. I ended up calling my mom so I could just talk to someone while I walked. I was really glad my suitcase had wheels, lol. So yeah, that was the craziest adventure I had, and I'm not in a hurry to repeat it :p

Not much else to report! Going home on Thursday!!! ::throws confetti:: Going to the beach house on Saturday!! ::launches fireworks::

(oh wait, ps. For those of you who care, I *did* go see New Moon over the thanksgiving break. I was...impressed. But only cause my expectations were so low I think, lol. I'm now kinda leaning towards Team Jacob in the movies, but still team Edward in the books. I went back and read through Eclipse after I saw the movie...yeah *totally* team Edward in the books, lol. The movie just looked better, meaning that it didn't look like a low-budget student film, aka. Twilight. The acting was still horrid. Painful. Only the guys who played Jacob and Charlie showed any kind of real emotion. so final verdict is: better than Twilight, which didn't take much, haha.)